okay even though it’s like 2am & i just feel like i need to write something.
a part of me feels a little unhappy — or unsatisfied.
i’ve been thinking a lot about my past and who i used to be. And I feel like my old self deserves to comeback somehow.
ever since i broke up with my most recent ex boyfriend, there has been a part of me that kind of just died. I kind of just lost the ability to feel.
If you’ve known me for the past couple of years, you’d know that my mindset has been along the lines of “it’s whatever” or “it’s in the past, get over it”
& even though having this mindset has made me more self-reliant. It has also made me closed off and unwilling to trust others.
I’m just tired of always putting up a strong front. I want people to be able to see past what i present myself as because it kind of makes me sad how not a lot of people do.